Ruined.

Stupid.

Idiot.

Bastard.

It describes me correctly...

I shouldn't have say it out....
Especially on the wrong moment, wrong situation, wrong mood...

ARGGH.

Now what?

I can't change what have happened right?

That's already the fact, isn't it?

Seriously i don't know why would i do that actually...
Why would i let you know?

I don't know.

Maybe, i really can't bear it going on like that anymore...
But now, it's worse.

It's ruined.

Everything is ruined.

Completely ruined.

darn.

I didn't want that to happen...
I didn't meant to tell u in the first place...
But i can't get hold of myself anymore...

As days passes, it's getting more and more deeper...

The deeper it goes,

the painer it ache.

I did mentioned that everything i told u beforehand are the truths right?

It is, seriously.

You said that you understands...

But, still...

You promised...

Yet, still...

sighs.

Everything you do and words u say, it takes all my breath away...

When i close my eyes and drift away, i always think that everything is fine...

Never wanted this.

It's killing me to lose a person that i cherished so much...

Hope you can't see through the smile i was faking...

Hope you know it's not simple for me...

This is extremely,

Frustrating Complicated.

Truth or Dare?

If i m choosing TRUTH instead of dare,

i seriously would like to believe everything u told me...

If i choose DARE,

i possibly will dare enough to tell u what have been in my heart for so long...

But,

I CAN'T.

I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.I CAN'T.

If i could, somehow. IF.
It's not gonna make any changes.
okay, fine. Yes, there is.

Close Friends===>Complete Strangers.

AREN'T I RIGHT?
Doesn't this kind of stuffs always happens in the end?
It's LIFE, right?

It's a meaningless life too, right?

Everything you have said, you have done made me feel like believing you.
But i don't really dare to.
I am afraid that it is just another and another trap being set by you...
There's already been times that i fell into it unknowingly yet realizing it wasn't right while it was too late....
So as many other innocents too...
One after one, no.
There were also few in once...
I was always pitying them, yet there is nothing i could do...

COMPLETELY CLUELESS.

Ever since that midnight, i was always trying to let this out of my mind FOREVER.
But, it is really hard.
BLOODY HARD.

It's always a little pain behind every "It's okay".

I've tried and tried, after being broken into pieces, after being wounded and ached...
Everything still remain the same...

What could i do?

NOTHING.

Seriously, definitely, actually, honestly, absolutely,

NOTHING.

I just wouldn't dare to.

I am a coward. i am afraid of losing. Yet, I'm already losing.

Aren't i a idiot?

Yes.

You can LAUGH.

SERIOUSLY.

DO ME A FAVOUR?

LAUGH

AT

ME.

for my sake.

please?

Boys really doesn't realized that how much a little thing can upset a girl.

Happiness =)

Yesterday was really once in a blue moon.x)

My parents agreed and let me wear contact lenses.

It's more convenient for me to have sports d next time liao =)

I won't always get my head hit by the balls tht always come flying to my way also...

I won't need to try so hard to GaP pple when i m not wearing my spects liao. =D

etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etcetc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.

WHOOTS.=)

NTG to write much about this liao...x)

****

Dude,

I was really glad that u called.

Thank you.

=)

****

Hong Soon,

it's great that u've finally decided ur next step.

I'll be watching for the changes from now on and so as xiao li n ying shuen.

We are always together.

Good LucK...=]

You can do it.

=)

****

Yinxin dear,

Thank you.

You are always the best.

<3>

****

I've found out that time can heal most anything.x)